Mein Jahr in den USA: Mai 2014

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I could stay awake for days if that's what you want
be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
if that's what you ask
give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human and I crash and I break down
your words in my head
knives in my heart
you build me up and then I fall apart
cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds if that's what you need
be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human and I crash and I break down
your words in my head
knives in my heart
you build me up and then I fall apart
cause I'm only human

I'm only human
I'm only human
just a little human

I can take so much
till I've had enough

Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human and I crash and I break down
your words in my head
knives in my heart
you build me up and then I fall apart
cause I'm only human
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Hier geht's zum "Human" Klingelton

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Hier geht's zum "Human" Klingelton

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I could stay awake for days if that's what you want
be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
if that's what you ask
give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

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The hardest thing I've ever done was saying goodbye to the bravest man on earth.
I am never ever gonna forget you and everything we went through.
I've learned a lot from you, Mr.Jones.
I believe in those human connections between individuals that are close to each other. Even if most people think that 2 year old Kids can't understand things like that. I've heard that Liam had a ruff day the day I left the U.S. So bad that the new Au Pair couldn't handle him anymore and had to call Kelly. I think he knew something wasn't right.

I'm so happy that I got the chance to be a part in this host family's life. And nobody can ever take it away.
I met this host family in, what I believe, there most challenging and hardest time in there life's. They seemed miserable, lost and tired of life. I met them when Liam was 12 month old. He was so tiny he could fit in 0-3 month pants and 3 to 6 month shirts and 6 month just so it was sitting lose because of his feeding tube. He still had a pick-line that went to his heart. He looked pretty sick and Kelly looked so tired.
Sarah was the sunshine in the family - she still is. She is full of life, funny, silly, lovely, precious, and so kind!
Liam spend pretty much of his first year of life in hospital.
And they never gave up. They got me as there help to get back to all-day-life.
They showed me every single day how important life is which is, I think, one of the most important things in life. Thank you so much!
I'm never gonna forget how Kelly called me a miracle. It really touched me!
There are also my miracle coz they showed me the meaning of life.
They learned to trust me and to find new trust in other people.
I am happy I could help them and I wish them all the luck they can get and the best doctors on earth.
I hope the new AuPair is trying her best just as I did, because this host family is a little different than others. They don't just need a Babysitter. They need someone who can help Kelly build up her life, someone who can give Sarah a little more childhood and someone who can help Liam when he needs help. Someone who understands.
I hope I chose the right one.

I would never ever have thought that going back home to your home country after 2 years would be so f*****g hard! So many people are telling you that they understand, that they know how hard it is. But they don't. Nobody can understand how hard it is if they haven't been there too. I thought it would be hard to go back but I didn't imagine it to be that incredible hard.
Germans are so different. My sisters are so different. Everything is so small. I am used to have everything in big. Big plates, big cups and glasses, big houses, big cars, a train in front of my house etc.. I am used to strangers asking me how my day is going, strangers smiling at each others, strangers saying "hi"...
Leaving a life behind isn't easy. Starting somewhere in your old life isn't any easier.

My travel month felt like a long journey to understand and to process the last two years and what's gonna happen soon.
It was like a therapy and I guess it helped. It prepared me a little.
I had the best travel buddy on my side: Julia (:
We had such an incredible time.
We started in Chicago and went all the way through St. Louis, Oklahoma City, Amarillo, Dallas, Austin, Big Bend NP, Houston, New Orleans, Memphis, Nashville, Smokey Mountains NP, Louisville, Cincinnati, Indianapolis and all the way back to Chicago. It was an amazing road trip.

This is it, now. This is my last post. My 2 years as an Au Pair are over.
It was the best decision of my life. I could not have it any better. I met tons of people that are from all over the world, I traveled a lot, I met some very important people that I now can call friends, I found a second home and a second family.
I hope I'm gonna meet them soon.

Thanks to all my readers, all your mails and questions! It was a lot of fun for me.

Thank you and goodbye!

Josy

PS: Never give up on your dreams ;)

Dienstag, 27. Mai 2014

saying goodbye